God has given me so much grace and forgiveness over the years. So many times I have screwed up on something. So many times I have asked for forgiveness and healing only to screw up again. Without God’s grace, I would be dead. My life would have no purpose because no matter how hard I tried I would still fail and end up in everlasting destruction.
Instead, God sent his son to die for me so that I may live. What can I do to repay him for this, I ask? I should love him more than anything in the world, I should be giving my all to serve Him and glorify Him, but instead I continue to find other things to love more. I seek worldly things and start thinking I can do things without His help.
I end up forgetting all He has done for me, and I fall. Sometimes I fall hard, but every time, He lifts me up again, brushes off the filth and encourages me to try again only to see me fall over and over again. But HE DOESN’T GIVE UP ON ME! He puts people in my life to help me walk, and He gives me the words to help my talk. He constantly shows me what I need to work on and He provides the means to do so, even if it’s hard.
He hates to see me fail, but he will love me just the same if I do. He loved me so much; He sacrificed His son for me to LIVE! He is the perfect father. The lessons learned through Him cannot be matched. They will be remembered for a lifetime and they will prepare me for so many challenges in the future.
Why then do I not go to Him for everything? Am I scared? Scared that I’m not good enough for what He has planned for me? I will never be good enough, but through Jesus, I have been granted a second chance at life. I owe my life to God who gave up His son to save me. I am called to serve in His army, standing up for what I believe and striving to bring the lost to Him.
I am at war and I am my greatest enemy. I pray that God will conquer the sin that resides in me and allow me to serve with a clean heart and mind. I pray that God will lead me into battle knowing that whatever happens, it is for His glory and not mine! I pray that He will take control of my life and give me a hope that no other thing can give. A hope of eternal life with my father in heaven. A hope of peace and a hope of everlasting love. God is the leader of my life!
Will he be yours?